Saturday, December 8, 2012

It's time for a girls night

If I were to sit down and start writing a list of all the things I am thankful for there wouldn't be a notebook with enough pages. When David and I first found out that we were going to be stationed in Norfolk we had peace only because we know that we have a big God and we were clinging to the promise that He had a plan. I never could have guessed what He had up his sleeve for us.

My last post was written just before David came home. It was more of an emotional drill to try and figure out what was really going on in my head. Deployment is tough, I'm not going to sugar coat it, but just because your spouse has to leave on a ship for months on end doesn't mean that God does, too (a lesson I am still trying to remind myself of). One of the things that David and I pray for and hope for during our deployments is that we will look for the blessings and not let the days go by unappreciated. The blessings were not just showered on us, but more like fire house in the face sprayed at us. So let me show you a couple of my blessings. These pictures were taken last night at my friend Val's house. I just love these girls. Looking at these pictures brings so much joy to my heart. I can hear the giggles and Christmas music, smell the wonderful food, feel the smiles and just how much I love being with these girls. There were a lot of ladies there but for all of you who couldn't make it we missed you! We had a great time enjoying each others company, making crafts, eating dessert and just being girls! Love you all! (And thank you for letting me shove the camera in your faces!)

Thursday, October 25, 2012

230 days...a glimpse into the life of a military wife

I have had several people tell me over the years that I should write a book about being a military wife. A book that would give others insight in to the life a military wife, that would offer support and encouragement, and that would be a guide to always bring us back to God. I have to admit that I can hardly keep up with a blog these days let alone think of writing things down for a book. And, when I do have my moments of inspiration I am generally lying in bed about to take a nap and know that for the sake of the world I really should sleep instead of getting up and writing things down. (Sorry world…I do get crabby if I don’t sleep!)

I was thinking about the upcoming events in our lives and realized that I do need to write a couple things down. Not necessary for the world (but you are welcome to keep reading) but for the emotional sanity of myself. The last couple days have been absolute emotional chaos and a mental struggle for me. I keep getting after myself because I am wondering what in the world is my problem. Here is the dilemma…David is coming home soon and I am absolutely about to crawl out of my skin because I am so excited. But, at the same time I have been about to lose it multiple times a day in full out sobbing. See what I mean? I am going crazy!

Today I went to a military spouse support group (“Hi, my name is Kristi. I am married to a man in the Navy), it is actually more like a Bible study, but it really does help to hear other’s experience and insight. Well, I was sitting there clammed up in my shell about to sob at the thought of opening my mouth and either asking a question or giving input so I just listened. Toward the end Verna (thank you so much for putting the group together!!!) made a comment and it hit me in the face so hard because it is me. She said, “You don’t always have to be strong.” I really don’t remember what else she said, because those words were echoing in my head. For those of you who have talked to me lately and offered “condolences”  about David being gone have heard me frequently respond “I knew what we were getting into,” or “so many other spouses are gone for a lot longer,” or “ this is where God has called us to be” or the common Kristi phrase “it is all good.” Yes, all those responses are true, but I have to honestly say that I have been stuffing down my emotions so deeply. Why might you ask? For the sake of survival!

Being a military spouse is an absolute privilege, an honor that I wouldn't trade for the world.  Having David for a husband has been the best gift God has given me (just to be clear…only second to salvation) and I would choose to walk this journey with him again hands down. But, it is not easy. I have gotten up in the morning and gone to bed without my husband for the last 230 days. Trying my best to keep the household running smoothly. Every morning I have picked his little boy out of his crib and watched this little boy learn to walk, talk, run, dance, drink out of a sippy cup, hug, blow kisses, open doors, turn on my ipod (little stinker), and so much more without his daddy. We have tried so hard to tell daddy about everything that has happened. Sending countless pictures and stories, videos and letters, but still, he has been gone on a ship serving our country. I ask Eli, “Where is daddy?” And he will either go and find the ipod that has a picture of daddy on it or look at the computer where he watches his daddy videos or on occasion has seen daddy on Skype.

We are so excited to have David coming home, so excited that I can hardly express in words the emotions that I am feeling. I know that the emotional chaos I am feeling is because all those emotions that I have had to stuff down just to survive can soon be felt again because my best friend, the love of my life, the one who knows me better than anyone on this earth, my man is coming home. I am so thankful that God has given him to me and just pray that He brings him and everyone with him home safely and soon.

Alright enough of that! I am going to go and wipe my tears and try and get this place ready for a homecoming! I will leave you with one more thing…two pictures…one from the day David left and one of our big boy now. Thank you, all of you, for your prayers and support! We could not do this without all of you! 

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Jackson Family

A couple weeks ago I had the privilege of taking pictures for the Jacksons. Talk about a ton of fun! Their two little boys are absolutely adorable and they are just a fun family to be around. Luke has so much energy and personality and Bennett is such a good baby. I am looking forward to all the play dates that are to come!   

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

What? My tags are showing?

I am sure that every mom out there has either blogged, posted on their wall, phoned a friend, or basically some how told someone about their little joys of being a mother. It is now my turn. I am sure that pretty much every mom of a very active child will agree with me when I say it is a lot of work (and you will probably go even further and tell me that when the next one comes out!). I love our very active little man and am so glad that right now I only have one so that I am "eased" (hahahHAHAHAHA!) into the busy routine. The activity level in my life has increased exponentially, but I have found that my vocabulary has decreased in the last 14 months. For some reason I keep saying the same things over and over again. "Listen," "stop," "ouch," "yuck," "don't put that in your mouth" (this one has some variations..."what is in your mouth?" "take that out of your mouth," "give mommy what is in your mouth"...pretty proud of myself for working that sentence), "ELI!" Thankfully there are a couple other well, sounds, "roar," "woof woof," "mmmmoooo," haha! You get the point. It is a joy watching him learn new tricks every day and try so hard to communicate what he is thinking. My favorite phrase "What is it?"

Tonight I decided that since it was so nice out we would go over to the little patch of grass with the dog and run around. Of course I had my camera because I hadn't taken a picture for David so off we went. I was so proud of us that we were outside again. I was taking pictures left and right and then saw a glimpse of myself in the reflection of one of the buildings. What was that on my shirt? Probably a little treasure from Eli? Ya, not this time! This time it was all mommy...silly me...I had my shirt on inside out! I tell ya, you can't win for losing sometimes! But, I was able to get some pictures and they are a perfect example of all that I love about Eli.

The running...
(this next picture is is pretty much the view I have all day long as I try and keep up with him. So if in the future you see a lot of pictures from this angle..well, you can just imagine what I look like chasing after him...with the camera....and the dog...haha!)
...walking (sometimes dragging) the dog...
...being completely excited that the train is coming by...
 ..."what is it?" say eli. "The train," says mommy.
...(Pause) "Hi tra!" exclaims the e monster. 
...searching for treasure...(I can just hear his little voice now, "wow!)
 ...and wanting to eat it...(here it comes, "not in your mouth, please!" yet another variation on my sentence...hehe)

There are so many joys that he brings to our life, but to be honest I get weighed down by all the responsibilities and repetitive tasks. Trying to be a parent is hard work!
I can already feel how so easily my focus is shifted.
But, I am determined to be there for this little man. To enjoy every moment, even the ones that try my patience and are downright frustrating. Because he is our little blessing and we love him to pieces.
There is nothing like seeing your baby boy running toward you with his arms wide open knowing that you are going to get a big old hug and kiss...
...or like seeing those big blue eyes look up at you...
So, I might need to wear running shoes and find a way to increase my vocabulary everyday, but it is worth it. We are ready little man. Run as fast as you can because daddy and I will do our best to stay right behind you every step of the way. We love you!